Sometimes I have no idea how to deal with myself. Even thou when i'm with friends having fun I can look like a pretty sociable person, most of the time I'm very introverted. I can easily spend days wihout physical contact with people, just chating on the internet, playing games, reading, watching movies, tv shows etc... Being alone for me it's not a problem because I think there are plenty of things to do. Well, if you consider talking over the internet as company, then maybe I'm not exactly alone, but anyways, what I mean is that I do just fine without real interaction for a couple of days.
But sometimes things become troublesome... Sometimes I really feel like talking to someone, talking and creating bounds. However, I feel that if I take initiative to do that, if I call someone over or if I go out to see someone, in the end I won't be satisfied. If the place I happen to go is too noisy and/or crowded, it will disturb my ability of having a conversation with the person (Im quite sensitve to that idk). Or if the transportation till the place where I wanna go takes too long, by the time I get there I may already have a headache.
In the end, I'm always trapped in imagining a situation, but not doing it if I have the opportunity. And what is worse (or better, idk) is that I can even feel happy just by keeping imagining! Also, my expectation of the conversation, what I have in my mind, usually seems much better than the result, when I speak it out. This makes me feel quite frustrated, to the point of giving up on what I wanted to say.
Do you have any comments?
Thanks for the attention